Feeling a bit melancholy today. Not sure why. I was at the church for the entire day and my internet was down. Could that be it? I had three meetings and hardly any time with my kids? Maybe that’s why? I have tough choices to make and I’m not sure I have the guts to say some of what needs to be said. Maybe that’s more on track…
Simplifying. Simplify. Need to simplify my life. Need to de-clutter my brain. Need to refocus. What’s that mean exactly?? There’s too much junk in there that I need to get rid of. I am not keeping up with everything because I can’t say no to anything. Things that used to make me happy don’t anymore. Things that used to make me sort of stressed are starting to interest me again. (i.e. theatre) Wanting to make a difference. Wanting to make an impact. Wanting to be effective.
What am I doing that is hindering that? What is keeping me from being effective? What is keeping me from doing the things I need to do?? What is my real purpose here?
I talk about it a lot. I know my purpose. I know what I’m supposed to do. And if the things I’m doing aren’t contributing to that… should I quit doing them? They aren’t harmful, but are they worth the time? Precious time.
So yeah… just feeling a little melancholy today.